Failing-A Mom Blog

It all started with good intentions.

My sons hair was looking like this...

The one doing the feeding, not the one being fed. :)

Seriously, an untamed, thick, long mess. 

Did I mention, thick and long.

Did I mention that he won't let me "do" it every day. Gel to tame the bedhead. No, that does not happen in this house.  He says it doesn't look like "him"

Did I also mention he hates to get his hair cut.

As in, once upon a time my mom pulled into the driveway and heard horrible screaming. So much screaming she ran in the house, sure that someone had broken a body part or worse, just to find him getting his hair cut.  Yes, its that bad.  No amount of bribing or cheering or encouraging will help.  In the five years of his life he has not cried for 2 haircuts.  When I say cried, I mean thrashing about screaming his head off.  Its a wonder his hair isn't to his knees.

So, we were all geared up for a "quick" hair cut.  Both babies sleeping. We had just finished dinner. Dessert was promised for good behavior.  

Towel over the face for stray hairs, cape on to be brave like superman.

The first couple of passes go without incident.  Then we get to the back where is it thicker and longer, and the first tug of hair.  You see, when you cut long hair with clippers, it builds up and starts to pull.  See where I am going.  

Much screaming to ensue.

We're talking scare his brother and sisters to death.  In the midst of him screaming, I could hear both babies and Leah crying.  Poor Daddy.  Side note, both babies had to be held the rest of the night because they were so shaken, at least that's what it seemed like.

30 minutes later we finally had a finished haircut. It ended with him sobbing into a towel. "Bad mommy, bad mommy, bad mommy"  Yep, we both ended the haircut in tears.

The only good thing, I didn't have to hold him down. :)

So, the lesson.  When your son needs a haircut, take him to super cuts or call his aunt :)

1 Month

I am taking a quiet moment while I've got one to report in. 

Bar far the hardest part of having twins is the no sleep!  I have found I can operate for a few days on very little sleep, but on about the 4th day I have to get a nap.

They are doing great!  Each of them eating 4oz every 3 hours.  I was able to pump for a month and then honestly didn't have the energy or time to continue.  Feel like a HUGE failure, more on that later.  Every time I feed Emmerson I wonder where she is putting all 4oz, I think she has a hollow leg.

I have gotten a smile out of Emmerson but Caleb is a hold out! 

They are starting to sleep a little better at night. Last night E did a 6 hour stretch between feedings and Caleb did 5. I would have gotten to sleep from 11-3 if I hadn't had a 5 y/o wake up puking at 2. O joy, we just did this with him last week too!  We are all sick around here.  We all have colds, including the babies and Wy has this stomach thing.  Really hoping that doesn't spread its way around.  I hate having all these germs around my almost 5 week old babies.  Sigh

I am so thankful for my otherwise healthy family though.  Got a heart/mind check this last week, when one of our really good friends out here's 8 day old son had to have heart surgery last Monday.  It actually ended up being 2 heart surgeries in one day.  What a toll that took on his mommy and daddy!  He is home now, 7 days later! Crazy right!?!   Praising God for His hand on tiny Rocky! 

Many people as how they can pray for me. Here's how. Having twins is hard. Having twins after already having 2 older kids is harder.  I feel like a failure in every way as a mom right now.  A failure with the babies because not only did they not nurse, but I couldn't even pump for that long.  Any mom who has tried and failed to nurse knows exactly how I feel.  You know its ok, that the best thing is that they are growing, but you've missed out on giving them the "best" and what parent wants 2nd best for their kids.  I feel like a failure because I don't get to spend as much 1 on 1 time with the babies. I feel like I'm just feeding, changing, feeding, changing and not really spending much time talking to and enjoying them.  I feel like a failure with the older two, because I can't spend nearly the time with them I'd like.  I am trying to find at least 1 thing a week to do with each of them, just us to help with this. 

I know I am trying my best, but just pray for me/us! 

I am not trying to complain!  I LOVE my family!  These babies have been a great blessing, I am so so thankful for them!  This is just the reality of life for the moment!  God's gonna get us through! 

This picture, shows a bit of life right now.  Neither big kid paying attention to me. Leah's hair insane...sigh...gotta love my bunch!!

Happy Birthday Baby Girl

SO hard to believe that this little girl....

...is not this little girl!



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Seriously, has it been 2 years already!  AMAZING!  Everyone always tells you it goes fast, but this is REALLY fast!
This girls has been such a joy to raise!  She is so sweet, loving, tender, sassy, determined, stubborn, funny...and many many other things! She makes us laugh daily and we cannot imagine life without her!  She is truly a gift!  One that we treasure every day!

Happy Birthday sweet girl! We love you SO much!

Surprise

Well, I think its about time I finally put this out here for all the world to hear. Because lets face it. We are going to need as much help as we can get!! 

We found out a few weeks ago we would be getting another addition to our family in late November!  And this past Wednesday we found out that we would be getting this....

Just in case you don't know what your looking at....that would be two babies!  HOLY COW!!  Shock! Overwhelming surprise!  Overwhelming in general.  All the hubby and I could do was laugh and of course I cried...tears of joy, but still tears!

I mean, in November we will have 4 children 5 and under!!!!!  AAHHHHH!!!! 

Great news!  Unbelievable blessings!!!

Pray for us PLEASE!!! We have been living in my parents basement for way to long and now my husband FINALLY has a permanant solid job (we've been interim for the last year) we can finally move forward with buying a house!  Already one up and down in that area...ready to make a bid on a house and we were too late!  Bummer...big bummer!  But we know that God has a the perfect house for us out there.  We have to get something a little bigger than we thought before, which adds a strain to what we were thinking, but we know our God is bigger!!!  We also need a new vehicle.  We currently own a Honda Civic. Enough said right!?!

We covet your prayers!  God knows all of this and will work it all out!  What a comfort, and I just need to keep giving it over to Him!!

Wonderful Exhausting Weekend...Wonderful Run!

What a great weekend at my brothers wedding!  Wonderful, but exhausting!  It was tough driving an 8 hour trip in 9+ hours thanks to wonderfully inclement weather!  Then get in the car and drive the rest of the 11 hour trip!  Thankfully that trip went as scheduled!

Exhausting thing #2 & #3  - my beautiful young children.  Note to self, never be in a wedding with your husband and children and not bring a designated babysitter!!!  Toting a toddler around on your hip while in heels is not recommended!  By the time the wedding began on Saturday I was mentally and physically done!  But SO excited for my brother and amazing new sister in law!!!

Exhausting thing #4 - Dancing for hours!  This was fun but again exhausting!  What a blast we had making fools of ourselves!  Believe me when I say I can't dance, and there is video evidence out there to prove it!f

Exhausting thing #5 - Sleeping on a full hotel bed with your husband. Needless to say. I got no sleep! 

Exhausting thing #.....who's annoyed with the numbers yet?!?  Me! Me! 

Drive an 11 hour trip home in 12.5 hours (at least)  We were moving along swimmingly and were scheduled to get home at 6:30pm when I had to pee.  So we stopped and a few of us got out for a quick potty stop.  We get back on the road and a few moments later by husband was slamming on the brakes because moments before around a corner a semi truck had just taken a curve too fast and tipped over!  Right in the middle of the road!  Next thing we know, my brother in law is jumping out of the car and running up to the accident.

Yep, that's him on TOP of the overturned truck!  (He was the only one in shape enough to climb up there to talk to the driver)  Thankfully he was conscious and talking, but none to coherently.  Poor kid had just gotten his license a few days earlier and this was his first haul!  We are praying he was really as ok as he seemed!

The embankment he went up on...wrecked it up nicely!

Dirt all over the road. Our van is right behind the semi on the right!

Kids with daddy waiting for the accident to be cleaned up!

About 1 1/2 -2 hours later they finally let us through after pulling the load to the side and cleaning up the road! (I have a video of this but blogger is being stupid and won't let me upload it for some reason, its all right, it wasn't that exciting!)

So we finally got home about 9:30ish and the kids ran around screaming and yelling!!  So happy to be out of the car!!!

All in all, I LOVED this weekend even though it exhausted me!

And even though I was exhausted from the weekends events (which included eating plenty of crappy food) I managed an 8mi run on Monday.  Yeah that's right 8mi!!!  Oh, and did I mention I did it at a 9:17 pace!!!  Last time I did 8 mi was training for my half and I did it at a 10:58 pace!  Now that's what I call improvement!!!

Nothing like being trapped in a car for 12 hours to get your legs moving.  And besides I have to re-lose the 2lbs I lost last week!! 

Sick = MIA

This has been a sick sick week for our family.  My poor kids have been through the ringer.  Fever, stuffy, cough, runny noses, aches.  Full out flu!  I feel so bad for them.  I have also gotten a touch of it but not nearly as bad as them!  So that is the reason for being MIA.

The good news.  I've gotten in 10 miles this week thanks to my 5.3 mi freezing cold run today.  My lungs were NOT happy with me. But it feels good to have it done!

Ok, back to tending to my sickies!

New Shoes!!!

Mamma gotta new pair of shoes!!!  A beautiful pair!  A pair I am SO happy about!  You'd think with all this joy I would be talking about a beautiful pair of pumps.  But no...these are my new beautiful babies!

Brooks Adrenaline GTS11 Support Shoes!  Ran in them today and LOVE them.  I need to adjust the laces a bit because my baby toes kept falling asleep but other than that I LOVED them!  Nice and supportive, very cushy!  I couldn't feel the road and that was so nice!  

Good run today!  4.5mi in 41 minutes.  My brother in law keeps making fun of me that I am so shocked by my times, but literally, every time I get a great time, like today, I am just dumbfounded!  I never thought I would be running so fast.  SO great!  I could have gone farther (and I really wanted to...it was 48 degrees out!) but my toes were bothering me a little too much...so I cut it short.  My goal is to do a 7 mile run this week!  Just to bring up my distance again!  I haven't run that long since the half, so I'm excited to try it!

****side note, my poor little boy is pretty sick.  Can't tell what's wrong, other than a little cold or the flu.  He's been running a high fever, his throat is hurting him and he is starting to get a nasty cough.  He's miserable!  Poor kid!****

Say What?

We all know kids say the darndest things right! 

Well, this is a conversation with Wy-man this morning....upon waking up at 5:15am!!

Me: "Wy, I want you to go get in bed with daddy and try to go back to sleep"

Wy: "Momma, I just don't have enough energy to go to sleep!"

Oh this child! 

Lovely quality of my phone camera!

*****I'd like to make this a regular type of post, so I'll start keeping a log of what he says (and they say) and hopefully bring some laughs to your day!****

I promised

I promised I wouldn't only post about my weight loss/running goals.  I promised pictures of my adorable children.  (one of whom is currently screaming because I wouldn't let her play with the camera...I know, I'm a horrible mom :)

So here she is in all her cheesy glory

And here's the boy....who we can rarely get to look at the camera anymore

Oh yes, those are my two babies.  Really, people always tell you it goes fast but this is CRAZY!!! 

Love them!!

Weigh in and a messy workout!

Today was weigh in morning (as if I don't get on the scale every day because I'm obsessed) and I lost 2lbs this week!  Good week for me, the only disappointing thing is that yesterday it said -3.  Water weight?  Guess I'll check again tomorrow, but for now -2 is GREAT!

Exciting times!

Missed a workout yesterday because I had gotten a workout in other ways. Like being up from 2:30-5am cleaning up after a certain little boy who woke up screaming and the proceeded to puke from his room to the bathroom (all over my back by the way) So cleaning up said mess then took over.  Did the essentials at night, then took most of yesterday to clean Clorox the bathroom.  Cleaned the carpets (for the 4th time) to get the stink out and cleaned most of the walls and baseboards of little drops of the mess and I had missed in the middle of the night.

So all of that counted as my workout for yesterday!

Thankfully, it looks like it was only something he ate and he only "lost it" one time!

At least this face is easy to love!!