Running that is!
I posted 5 miles last week!!
Running/Walking, but mostly running!
I am one happy mommy!!
Monday, December 26, 2011
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
1 Month
I am taking a quiet moment while I've got one to report in.
Bar far the hardest part of having twins is the no sleep! I have found I can operate for a few days on very little sleep, but on about the 4th day I have to get a nap.
They are doing great! Each of them eating 4oz every 3 hours. I was able to pump for a month and then honestly didn't have the energy or time to continue. Feel like a HUGE failure, more on that later. Every time I feed Emmerson I wonder where she is putting all 4oz, I think she has a hollow leg.
I have gotten a smile out of Emmerson but Caleb is a hold out!
They are starting to sleep a little better at night. Last night E did a 6 hour stretch between feedings and Caleb did 5. I would have gotten to sleep from 11-3 if I hadn't had a 5 y/o wake up puking at 2. O joy, we just did this with him last week too! We are all sick around here. We all have colds, including the babies and Wy has this stomach thing. Really hoping that doesn't spread its way around. I hate having all these germs around my almost 5 week old babies. Sigh
I am so thankful for my otherwise healthy family though. Got a heart/mind check this last week, when one of our really good friends out here's 8 day old son had to have heart surgery last Monday. It actually ended up being 2 heart surgeries in one day. What a toll that took on his mommy and daddy! He is home now, 7 days later! Crazy right!?! Praising God for His hand on tiny Rocky!
Many people as how they can pray for me. Here's how. Having twins is hard. Having twins after already having 2 older kids is harder. I feel like a failure in every way as a mom right now. A failure with the babies because not only did they not nurse, but I couldn't even pump for that long. Any mom who has tried and failed to nurse knows exactly how I feel. You know its ok, that the best thing is that they are growing, but you've missed out on giving them the "best" and what parent wants 2nd best for their kids. I feel like a failure because I don't get to spend as much 1 on 1 time with the babies. I feel like I'm just feeding, changing, feeding, changing and not really spending much time talking to and enjoying them. I feel like a failure with the older two, because I can't spend nearly the time with them I'd like. I am trying to find at least 1 thing a week to do with each of them, just us to help with this.
I know I am trying my best, but just pray for me/us!
I am not trying to complain! I LOVE my family! These babies have been a great blessing, I am so so thankful for them! This is just the reality of life for the moment! God's gonna get us through!
This picture, shows a bit of life right now. Neither big kid paying attention to me. Leah's hair insane...sigh...gotta love my bunch!!
Bar far the hardest part of having twins is the no sleep! I have found I can operate for a few days on very little sleep, but on about the 4th day I have to get a nap.
They are doing great! Each of them eating 4oz every 3 hours. I was able to pump for a month and then honestly didn't have the energy or time to continue. Feel like a HUGE failure, more on that later. Every time I feed Emmerson I wonder where she is putting all 4oz, I think she has a hollow leg.
I have gotten a smile out of Emmerson but Caleb is a hold out!
They are starting to sleep a little better at night. Last night E did a 6 hour stretch between feedings and Caleb did 5. I would have gotten to sleep from 11-3 if I hadn't had a 5 y/o wake up puking at 2. O joy, we just did this with him last week too! We are all sick around here. We all have colds, including the babies and Wy has this stomach thing. Really hoping that doesn't spread its way around. I hate having all these germs around my almost 5 week old babies. Sigh
I am so thankful for my otherwise healthy family though. Got a heart/mind check this last week, when one of our really good friends out here's 8 day old son had to have heart surgery last Monday. It actually ended up being 2 heart surgeries in one day. What a toll that took on his mommy and daddy! He is home now, 7 days later! Crazy right!?! Praising God for His hand on tiny Rocky!
Many people as how they can pray for me. Here's how. Having twins is hard. Having twins after already having 2 older kids is harder. I feel like a failure in every way as a mom right now. A failure with the babies because not only did they not nurse, but I couldn't even pump for that long. Any mom who has tried and failed to nurse knows exactly how I feel. You know its ok, that the best thing is that they are growing, but you've missed out on giving them the "best" and what parent wants 2nd best for their kids. I feel like a failure because I don't get to spend as much 1 on 1 time with the babies. I feel like I'm just feeding, changing, feeding, changing and not really spending much time talking to and enjoying them. I feel like a failure with the older two, because I can't spend nearly the time with them I'd like. I am trying to find at least 1 thing a week to do with each of them, just us to help with this.
I know I am trying my best, but just pray for me/us!
I am not trying to complain! I LOVE my family! These babies have been a great blessing, I am so so thankful for them! This is just the reality of life for the moment! God's gonna get us through!
This picture, shows a bit of life right now. Neither big kid paying attention to me. Leah's hair insane...sigh...gotta love my bunch!!
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
They're here!!
This past Wednesday was met with excitement and trepidation!
We arrived at the hospital at 9:30am and were taken right up to periop for prep for the surgery. I can't say I wasn't nervous, but I think I was more excited and ready to be done being pregnant! We were met by our sweet nurse who took us back to our room and got us ready! We didn't have long to wait, the surgery was scheduled for 11:30am and there was a lot to do before then. We got pushed back a half hour at some point, and since they had already started pumping me full of fluids I needed to use the restroom. My nurse had stepped out and the nurse that came in amazingly was our labor and delivery nurse from when we had Leah! We LOVED her in our past delivery! She was awesome so we were so excited to see her! She said we looked familiar but she's helped with probably thousands (ok or hundreds) of deliveries in the last couple of years so I'm sure the faces blurr together. She ended up being in the surgery and then we had her for our post op! She again was amazing. But, I'm getting ahead or myself.
We were taken to surgery just before noon and the part I was scared most of was right in front of me....the spinal! But I bucked it up and clenched my fists and was plesantly surprised that it wasn't really that big of a deal1 Yay!! Man, those things work fast! The first sensation was nice, because my feet had been freezing and were instantly warm :) Its funny the things you take note of! Ok all draped and prepped and
at 12:09 Chris was ushered in and
at 12:11pm Caleb Jeffery joined the world and
at 12:12pm Emmerson Rose brought us her sweet presence!
What amazing moments! Very different than delivering naturally, but still amazing none the less!
Caleb screamed and screamed and screamed while he was being weighed in at 6# 13oz and measured at 20" long
Emmerson also cried and cried while she weighed in at 5# 14oz and measuring 19" long!
At times we were laughing because they seemed to be competing with eachother!
Both were doing great at first, but Caleb started having some trouble breathing before the surgery was done they decided he was going to go to the NICU for observation for a bit. Thankfully my surgery was completed before he was taken away and I was able to hold him for a few minutes. Not nearly long enough, but at least I could see him! Incidentally, I didn't get to see him again until after 8 that evening.
Emmy, in all her tiny goodness was doing great! She never had to leave us! She is perfect!
We were taken back to recovery, where after a bit my dad was able to come in to see us! So so sweet, seeing our tiny tiny girl in her grandpa's big hands! Very secure! I was able to call my mom and let her know all was well and they were here! She was staying with the older two kids so had to wait a bit to come up! Dad went and subbed her out and she came up to meet her newest grandbaby.
The Dr. from the NICU came up just before we were taken to postpardem to let us know about our sweet boy! He had a small, very small pneumothorax and was just having some trouble breathing. They decided to admit him :( He was doing well, just not well enough.
The next few hours were met with lots of family and friends all thrilled our sweet blessing were here!!!
There is so much more to add, but for now this will have to do!
We arrived at the hospital at 9:30am and were taken right up to periop for prep for the surgery. I can't say I wasn't nervous, but I think I was more excited and ready to be done being pregnant! We were met by our sweet nurse who took us back to our room and got us ready! We didn't have long to wait, the surgery was scheduled for 11:30am and there was a lot to do before then. We got pushed back a half hour at some point, and since they had already started pumping me full of fluids I needed to use the restroom. My nurse had stepped out and the nurse that came in amazingly was our labor and delivery nurse from when we had Leah! We LOVED her in our past delivery! She was awesome so we were so excited to see her! She said we looked familiar but she's helped with probably thousands (ok or hundreds) of deliveries in the last couple of years so I'm sure the faces blurr together. She ended up being in the surgery and then we had her for our post op! She again was amazing. But, I'm getting ahead or myself.
We were taken to surgery just before noon and the part I was scared most of was right in front of me....the spinal! But I bucked it up and clenched my fists and was plesantly surprised that it wasn't really that big of a deal1 Yay!! Man, those things work fast! The first sensation was nice, because my feet had been freezing and were instantly warm :) Its funny the things you take note of! Ok all draped and prepped and
at 12:09 Chris was ushered in and
at 12:11pm Caleb Jeffery joined the world and
at 12:12pm Emmerson Rose brought us her sweet presence!
What amazing moments! Very different than delivering naturally, but still amazing none the less!
Caleb screamed and screamed and screamed while he was being weighed in at 6# 13oz and measured at 20" long
Emmerson also cried and cried while she weighed in at 5# 14oz and measuring 19" long!
At times we were laughing because they seemed to be competing with eachother!
Both were doing great at first, but Caleb started having some trouble breathing before the surgery was done they decided he was going to go to the NICU for observation for a bit. Thankfully my surgery was completed before he was taken away and I was able to hold him for a few minutes. Not nearly long enough, but at least I could see him! Incidentally, I didn't get to see him again until after 8 that evening.
Emmy, in all her tiny goodness was doing great! She never had to leave us! She is perfect!
We were taken back to recovery, where after a bit my dad was able to come in to see us! So so sweet, seeing our tiny tiny girl in her grandpa's big hands! Very secure! I was able to call my mom and let her know all was well and they were here! She was staying with the older two kids so had to wait a bit to come up! Dad went and subbed her out and she came up to meet her newest grandbaby.
The Dr. from the NICU came up just before we were taken to postpardem to let us know about our sweet boy! He had a small, very small pneumothorax and was just having some trouble breathing. They decided to admit him :( He was doing well, just not well enough.
The next few hours were met with lots of family and friends all thrilled our sweet blessing were here!!!
There is so much more to add, but for now this will have to do!
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
T-Minus
Well, since I'm on some form of bedrest now seems like a good time to update.
8 Days.
Unless I go on my own before, my c-section (yes c-section) is scheduled for November 9. It was supposed to be today because my blood pressure has been high and I have been classified "mild preeclamptic" but the hospital and the dr's from maternal fetal medicine wanted me to wait for the babies. Now, while I understand this is better for the babies, the longer they are inside the better, I am SO ready to be done. Tomorrow marks 36 weeks and I am HUGE. The pictures I got taken by my lovely sister were weeks ago....like I think at least a month ago so you see how big I was then and add a month! Ugh! The bedrest has helped because I'm not as up and around as I was before. This however, is also very frustrating. There are things that need to be done and I cannot do them. Chris has been fantastic with helping, but there are things only a wife/mom can see and clean how I want them. But its working out fine and I won't be pregnant for much longer.
Back to the c-section. Bummer, total bummer. Unless a miracle happens and baby boy decides to turn around I have to have a c-section because he is "very breech" in the words of the dr. Whatever "very breech" means. Baby girl is transverse, but her position is irrelevant because he is the "presenting" (first) baby out. I am a little nervous about the c-section, I've never even had and epidural! But I am glad to know how this is going to happen. If I had been able to go naturally, there was the chance I could deliver one vaginally and the other c-section and I DID NOT want that to happen, so now its just decided for us. I would love for the miracle to happen and just deliver them naturally because I know the recovery would be so much easier, but I am glad we have a plan. Even though we all know with babies that can change in a second!
I'm excited to meet these little ones! We are 99% prepared and as prepared as we need to be, just a few more touches in the nursery and it will be done, but those are not needed to have the babies!
A few way to pray!
Patience for me as I am so "down and out"
Patience for Chris as he essentially plays mom, dad and youth pastor
For my kids....all 4 of them.
....for Wyatt that this transition is easy for him especially with really still getting adjusted to school
....for Leah, because she has no idea what is about to hit her
....for the babies healthy arrival!
Thanks all!!
Here's the babies in the belly pic!!!
8 Days.
Unless I go on my own before, my c-section (yes c-section) is scheduled for November 9. It was supposed to be today because my blood pressure has been high and I have been classified "mild preeclamptic" but the hospital and the dr's from maternal fetal medicine wanted me to wait for the babies. Now, while I understand this is better for the babies, the longer they are inside the better, I am SO ready to be done. Tomorrow marks 36 weeks and I am HUGE. The pictures I got taken by my lovely sister were weeks ago....like I think at least a month ago so you see how big I was then and add a month! Ugh! The bedrest has helped because I'm not as up and around as I was before. This however, is also very frustrating. There are things that need to be done and I cannot do them. Chris has been fantastic with helping, but there are things only a wife/mom can see and clean how I want them. But its working out fine and I won't be pregnant for much longer.
Back to the c-section. Bummer, total bummer. Unless a miracle happens and baby boy decides to turn around I have to have a c-section because he is "very breech" in the words of the dr. Whatever "very breech" means. Baby girl is transverse, but her position is irrelevant because he is the "presenting" (first) baby out. I am a little nervous about the c-section, I've never even had and epidural! But I am glad to know how this is going to happen. If I had been able to go naturally, there was the chance I could deliver one vaginally and the other c-section and I DID NOT want that to happen, so now its just decided for us. I would love for the miracle to happen and just deliver them naturally because I know the recovery would be so much easier, but I am glad we have a plan. Even though we all know with babies that can change in a second!
I'm excited to meet these little ones! We are 99% prepared and as prepared as we need to be, just a few more touches in the nursery and it will be done, but those are not needed to have the babies!
A few way to pray!
Patience for me as I am so "down and out"
Patience for Chris as he essentially plays mom, dad and youth pastor
For my kids....all 4 of them.
....for Wyatt that this transition is easy for him especially with really still getting adjusted to school
....for Leah, because she has no idea what is about to hit her
....for the babies healthy arrival!
Thanks all!!
Here's the babies in the belly pic!!!
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Pics from the year :)
Decided to do a pics only (almost) post. These are pics from my brothers wedding in March, our beach trip in June and then my boys first day of school! Enjoy!
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| Me and my love at my brother's wedding |
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| New nephew P - love this pic of he and I. Just ignore wy :) |
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| New Sister! Love her! |
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| Me and my silly kids |
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| Sweet girls on the beach |
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| Only baby girl would cooperate |
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| She LOVED the water |
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| He couldn't be bothered for a picture, notice he's being held in place |
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| Looking at fish and crabs |
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| Where we go in OBX is right near the wild horses, one day we'll go see them |
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| My big boy on his first day of Kindergarten! |
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